the dream: nightmare

dreams?

Dreams are the images, thoughts and feelings experienced while asleep, particularly strongly associated with rapid eye movement sleep. The contents and purpose of dreams are poorly understood.

General observation shows that dreams are strongly associated with rapid eye movement (REM) sleep, during which an electroencephalogram shows brain activity to be most like wakefulness. Participant-remembered dreams during non-REM sleep are normally more mundane in comparison.

During a typical lifespan, a human spends a total of about six years dreaming (which is about 2 hours each night). It is unknown where in the brain dreams originate, if there is a single origin for dreams or if multiple portions of the brain are involved, or what the purpose of dreaming is for the body or mind.

The most common emotion experienced in dreams is anxiety. Negative emotions are more common than positive feelings

*info taken from wikipedia =)


i still dont know why i dream of such things
but they did say it is unknown

last night, or rather this morning
i woke up afraid

i dreamt that gail brought a group of us on an excursion to learn more about fyp
the excursion was at the beach (the kind where you could fish)
definitely not in singapore because there were monsters in the sea!
while the rest were wondering around the area
i think it was gail, and i stayed to look at 1 person fishing
the person fishing is together with the group (most prob the tourguide)
he was standing on a shorter piece of rectangular rock with his fishing rod
i dontr know if he caught a fish or something
but he needed help and gail helped him
by standing on a taller piece of rock in front of his
her rock was nearer to the sea
i cant remember what happened inbetween
but the next thing i know
muddy sand was squirting out of their limbs
almost as if they were blood
it was a scary sight like im watching saw3 or smth
in the end
both of them died
of course it doesnt end here
i promised them that i will tell the rest of the group what happened
so that they could take caution or something
i tried to gather them together many times
at eating places or at the office
apparently, one of them was the boss?
the office layout is rather cool
its circular!
anyway when i finally succeeded to gather them in a meeting room
they couldnt pay attention
it was as if something was purposely pulling their attention away
i got angry and stormed out
then i remembered my promise and turned back to tell them
by then they dispersed and i could only tell them 1 by 1
i told about 2 - 3 people and then i woke up
thankfully
i wouldnt want to know how this dream ends

i dont know if you understood what this dream is about
or how scary it is
but its definitely not reality

the beginning of the ending

the time has come.
fyp will be officially be over in 11 hours
its just as caleb said
can you smell the freedom?
i can


good luck to everybody!
dont be late =D


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the heartfelt gratitude

final year project
you work under stress
you sleep and eat in extremes
you try to do anything else but work
you destress whenever you can
well, maybe its just me
maybe not.

its been 12 weeks and counting
a couple more and we will officially complete our final module in TP
already, i have so many people i would like to thank

AMANDA. (lecturer)
thank you for all the many many consultations and helping me brainstorm together. for motivating me and pushing me. you are seriously super cute.

ASHLEY.
thank you for helping me without fail and any murmur. my LC wouldnt have been smooth without you. my SONG wouldnt have sounded like corrinne may without you. my STORY wouldnt have been thought through without you. my EDIT wouldnt have been so short without you. as you can see, YOU RAWK LA.

CALEB.
thank you for helping me on such last minute notice on my first day of shoot and flying all the way to bras basah just to help me get reflectors. thank you for being there and supporting me though times where only your handsome face works. winks*

CHANGBOON.
thank you for being your crazy self, bringing laughter around hereafter. you are the TENSION BREAKER. haha. and thank you for your encouragement.

CHRISTINE.
omgomgomgomg. THANK YOU CHRISTINE. no christine no office. no christine no house. no christine no child care. no christine no kyle. no christine no kids. no christine no jeremy. no christine no ABBY'S FYP. yes. this is how much i owe you.

DAOMING.
just thank you. for everything.

GABRIEL.
thank you for helping me on such a late notice as well. and actually giving your best all the way till 5am. i wouldnt know what to do without you.

GAIL.
thank you for the opportunity to interview MINISTERS. =) and for remembering my cab fare!

JAMIE.
(cont') no jamie no cafe. no jamie no xiuting. no jamie no cake. no jamie no snacks. SERIOUSLY AH. i am lost for words. just know that FRIENDS FOREVER. haha.

JASON.
thank you for teaching me COLOUR. and going through my work with me. on a random note: i miss the old days.

JIAYI.
thank you for being my listening ear ALL THE TIME. (simple words eh) heh. OH. and for being my storyboard artist.

JOHNKUEK.
thank you for teaching me step-by-step audio and offering me your studio to do my mastering. you shall receive most helpful lecturers award!

JOSH.
thank you for taking over jiayi and helping me draw until your eyes closed. wooooo to joshua's zig zag mirrors and curly hair boss. HAHA.

JULIAN.
uh. thank you for listening to all my LONG winded consultations and looking through my LONG winded video. and teaching me which part to cut short and how. it really helped me a lot a lot a lot, i hope you know how much that means to me.

KAZUMI.
thank you for informing me about the fashion consultant course and telling me more about make up. woo hoo~! i had fun bonding with you again. TAMAGO.

MATTHEW.
although you PANG SEI-ed me at my most crucial times but no matter what i still love you deep deep. haha. you and i. we're gonna be friends for a long time. thank you for making me laugh when im so damn stressed inside. and for helping for as long as you could. it was enough. smiles.

MAVERIC.
AIYA. no need to thank you la. lol. just kidding. you are someone i look up to and always will no matter how nonsense you may be. thank you for sharing TIPS about whatever you know.

NEVILLE.
thank you for offering to draw my storyboard for me (even tho its too late). thank you for listening and commenting on my ideas a million times and helping me think through my ending. it's great.

SIEWCHENG.
thank you for just spending hours with me for each consultation. i greatly appreciate your time and comments and contact for the make up artist!

TOM.
without tom, my lighting will be like SHIT. and, i have all these beautiful cutaways and angles to thank for too. you saved my ass just like how i know you would. thank you for the plentiful massages and maybe more to come.. heh.

WATI.
i think i have the best make up artist in the world. just think, where in the world will you find a make up artist who is willing to stay with you for 19 hours with a pay of only 20 dollars (of course i didnt give her only 20, but thats not the point). i heart you.

YIJIE.
thank you for sacrificing your precious holiday time to help me on my shoots. you were a great help and you are irreplaceable. thank you for being my friend.

YEAR2AUDIOCLASS.
thank you for being so considerate (at least to me) during my times of NEED. haha.

not forgetting my cast and singer.

AMANDA.
thank you for spending so much time with me in the audio room, staying with me even after your friends leave. and for singing OVER AND OVER AGAIN to make it right. i really owe my song to you.

JEANE. RUSSEL.
thank you for being ever so willing to help me even though im a total stranger. your fabulous acting made my story come through. i dont know what else to say but PLEASE, if there's anything i can do for you, ask.

JEANE.
i feel so bad about the mascara part and for making you stay till so late!

JEREMY.
thank you helping me act on such late notice and for being so fun-loving even after such a long day. thank you for going through with my perfectionist character and giving the camera your best shots.

KYLE.
thank you for organising the kids in the child care to help me act. and for acting for me too! i promise i will make up your notice board.

RACHEL.
thank you judy as well for giving me the chance. i hope both of us had a fulfilling experience through this.

RUSSEL.
thank you for being ever so considerate about helping me save money on the last day of shoot. it was a great great help that i wont forget.

XIUTING.
I LOVE YOU HARMONY. you so cute so cute you. star actress goes to you!! =) (if you ever see this). lol.




please forgive me if i left anyone out.
it is almost 2am and i have interim2 tomorrow.

the accidental accident

sometimes in my life
the expected becomes inexpectable
not only does it throw me off guard
it creates this temporary air bag that numbs all emotions
only to land a greater shatter when i open my eyes
its a plunge into danger
a plunge into darkness
a plunge into a future without armor
but its only route to go
and the only route i know

the final year project

all the anxiety and unpredictable trauma
its putting our passions to the test
will we be able to stand firm in front of all
or will we waver and doubt ourselves

although one has fallen
i hope for it not to be the same for the rest

add oil people
lets get through this..
together

the morbid dream

i have no idea what provoked this dream of mine
but it definitely was realisitic
hopefully it'll never become a reality

i was out on an excursion somewhere near the sea
singapore started to flood
i lost all my belongings
got caught in the water and struggled for half an hour
fortunately, shawn saved me
we were boarding the bus back to safe grounds
but shawn disappeared and i was left alone in the bus of unfamiliar faces
all except one who gave comfort and stability throughout the trip
apparently, shawn has left to rescue another girl
and she made the news and was subsidised for all that she lost
in school, jiayi and i had to hide from someone
and to remain silent, i placed a 'bulb' in my mouth
after the hide was done, i had lost my ability to move
tom and caleb called the ambulance
but by the time i reached the hospital, it was too late
i became a vegetable
my family, david and the rest were mourning by my bedside
i wanted so much to tell them im alright, dont cry
but i couldnt move or speak or make history again
the hospital asked if they were willing to donate my organs to a needy patient
i shouted and screams inside me thinking there's still a chance to wake up
i needed them to not give up on me.. yet
the painful realisation of becoming a vegetable strike me
just as they have mourned, i mourned
and then i woke up from my sleep

when i fell back asleep, i seemed to have continued the dream
only, i have went back in time
i was just brought in the hospital
and the doctors and nurses were trying their best to save me
through an intensive surgery, i managed to not become a vegetable
but the injuries were too intensive
even if i recovered, i will have to go back for a weekly check up
we were all happy that i survived and were joking around
ashley mentioned the drowned girl getting subsidized and i didnt
and christine gave her trademark 'YEAH'
and we walked out of the hospital

this is all i remember

the new year

its the time of the year again
the time where everybody wishes
the time where everybody celebrates
the time where everybody is happy
the time where i try to be happy but somehow ends up doing otherwise
so ask me if im looking forward to 12pm