Monday, October 5, 2009

the trip

IM GOING BANGKOK!!!!
:D

Tuesday, September 29, 2009

the next step

has it not hit me yet?
or am i slowly picking myself up already
somehow i wish it would hurt more
right now i dont know what to feel

Monday, September 28, 2009

the words of GOD

Our Help In Time Of Need

Hebrews 4:16
Let us therefore come boldly to the throne of grace, that we may obtain mercy and find grace to help in time of need.

If you are facing a challenge right now, I want you to know that you have a standing invitation from your heavenly Father to come boldly to the throne of grace to “obtain mercy and find grace to help in time of need”.

The phrase “help in time of need” means that you get healing when you are sick, provisions when you are in lack, restoration when your relationship with a loved one breaks down, and favor when news of job cuts or bad prospects are rife.

“Pastor Prince, how can I come boldly when I have been a lousy Christian?”

You can come boldly because you come to God by the blood of Jesus Christ and not by how you have lived your life. So whenever you come into God’s presence, you don’t have to be afraid that your sins will be exposed because the blood of Jesus has removed every one of them. God does not see even one speck of sin in you because He sees only the blood of His Son, which has been shed for your total forgiveness and acceptance.

My friend, when you have failed and need mercy, God’s Word assures you that you will find mercy when you come boldly to God. Mercy means that you don’t get the bad things you deserve, such as condemnation, poverty, failure, loss and even death.

And mercy is not the only thing that you will obtain when you come boldly to God. You will also find grace. Grace means that you get the good things that you don’t deserve, such as health, protection, anointing, favor, good success and life more abundant.

So come boldly to the One who loves you passionately, unconditionally and with an undying love. Come boldly to Him who knows everything about your situation and has the solution. He has wisdom far beyond that doctor you highly respect, that lawyer you greatly honor and the best experts you can consult. Beloved, come boldly to the throne of grace to obtain mercy and grace to help in your time of need!

copyrighted from new creation church

Thursday, August 6, 2009

the shoe shopping

the worst thing for shoppers like me
is that we never realize we needed something until we saw it
of course im not getting this fabulous pair of shoes just because its fab
i really did want a pair like this for a long time..
believe me



yum!

Friday, July 10, 2009

the extraction

She doesn't like people being late for business meetings, never mind dinner dates. I'd stood her up. Not intentionally. Not out of any malice but out of love. Imagine not meeting someone because you loved them so much. Imagine hurting someone, making them feel lonely, angry and unloved beacause you think it's best for them.

I don't know what is going on with us. I have enough worries and I have enough pain as it is and I am not volunteering myself for any more.

When you drop a glass or plate to the ground it makes a loud crashing sound. When a window shatters, a table leg breaks, or when a picture falls off the wall it makes a noise. But as for your heart, when that breaks, it's completely silent. You would think as it's so important it would make the loudest noise in the world, or even have some sort of ceremonious sound like the gong of a cymbal or the ringing of a bell. But it's silent and you almost wish there was a noise to distract you from the pain. If there is a noise, it's internal. It screams and no one can hear it but you. It screams so loud your ears ring and your head aches. It trashes around in your chest like a great white shark caught in the sea; it roars like a mother bear whose cub has been taken. That's what it looks like and that's what it sounds like, a trashing, panicking, trapped great big beast, roaring like a prisoner to its emotions. But that's the thing about love - no one is untouchable. It's as wild as that, as raw as an open wound exposed to salty sea water, but when it actually breaks, it's silent. You're just screaming on the inside and no one can hear it.

extracted from Cecelia Ahern's if you could see me now

Wednesday, July 8, 2009

the restraining order. period.

no more shopping till sept
im gonna get my mac book pro
oh yeah


come to mama

Friday, March 27, 2009

the friday

seriously
the day cant get any better
fuck

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

the bbf number two


un-edited :)

Tuesday, March 3, 2009

the first black bird fly


my first film taken with bbf
unedited :)

cant wait for the next roll to develop!

Sunday, February 22, 2009

the 10 golden rules of lomography

1. take your LOMO with you wherever you go
2. use it all the time, at any time - day & night
3. lomography does not interfere with your life, it's a part of it
4. get as close as possible to the objects of your lomographic desire
5. don't think (william firebrace)
6. be fast
7. you don't have to know what's going to be captured on your film beforehand

8. you don't have to know what's on mthe film afterwards either
9. shoot from the hip
10. don't worry about the rules

(this came together with my box of films)

Friday, February 20, 2009

the retro bag


coming soon
look out for more

Thursday, February 19, 2009

the camera craze

*according to date of purchase
*price not including postage


argus - $1


close up lens - $30


3 lens disderi - $30


holga 120 gn - $60


diana+ - $70


demekin fish eye - $20


multi colour flash - $30


paranomic 35mm adaptar - $20


black bird fly - $146.26

1 X 110 film - $6
1 X 120 film - $10.90

5 X 110 films - $20
25 X 35/120 films - 131.40
total expenditure - $575.56

ouch
there goes my angpao money + savings
no wonder im broke.

still missing
- film scanner
- dry box
- ring flash

including my fuji instax 7
i own 7 cameras now
lets keep it at that for now
for a while at least =P

*pictures taken online :)

Monday, February 16, 2009

the fish bone

stupid fish bone
stuck in my throat
since valentines day

went to the docs
they looked through the scopes
but didnt find a thing

call me unlucky
happens once in a million
its not good

waiting for
the ct scan
results

hoping for the best
that its just a scratch

i dont wanna go through
that cold hard metal

god, please free me
from this terrible nightmare

god, please save me
let me in to your world

*impromptu song
(humming the tune in my head)
HAHAHA
bet i'll forget the tune
i miss my poem/song writing days

extra lyrics
(for christian song)

god, redeem me
from this cold hearted world

god, lead me
into your embrace

Thursday, February 12, 2009

the downturn

i reached home feeling tired and excited
just bought my DIANA+
and received 2 parcels at home!
my argus 20 and my close up lens ..
took pictures and wanted to share
only to be led in huge disappointment and much despair
right now my mood is just going down down down

sequence of mood turning sour

1. argus
omg. its perfect

just like what i thought it would be
i love it.

2. close up lens
i saw a picture somewhere on a net where
a similar CU lens fitted perfectly on a fuji instax 7
i convinced myself it could work on camera too

but not only does it not fit,
when i tested it, my picture turned out black
-.- nevermind.
then i saw that the packaging of the lens says for fuji instax 50/55
what the hell. i remember asking hell alot of questions
one was if it could fit on a fuji instax
(i didnt state any model)
and the guy said NO
so i went to the site to check it out
then i noticed it only states for lomo lc-a
when i bought it, i thought to myself
"even if i cant use if for my fuji instax,
i can still use it for my holga"
but damn!
now im thinking where the hell did i see the word holga man
did i just pay for a freaking CU Lens for NOTHING
ughs! i feel so shitty

3. diana+
then i realised..
isnt diana+ supposed to come with ..
a. diana+
b. diana vignettes photo and story book
c. instruction manual
d. 12 & 16 shot format frames
e. shutter lock, neckstrap, lens cap
and i only received a diana+ and frames and neck strap and lens cap
I FEEL SUPER CHEATED

4. multicolour flash
i wanted to get it to go along with my holga
and it isnt a bad choice too
but after i bought diana+ without research
realised i can only use ring flash with it
i thought why not just get a ring flash and use for both
but its already pre-ordered
and i cant back out
DAMN.

i hate it that its going downhill
how much more can i take

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

the happy flight

im flying to BANGKOK
woo hoo :)

Monday, February 9, 2009

the expensive addiction

omgness
it feels like an entire day has passed (and it has)
and i havent moved more than an inch being in front of the comp
havent removed my make up
havent ate my medicine
havent drank water tho my throat begs
havent even gone to the toilet (hope i dont get stones)
i cant remember when was the last time i became so addicted
(this does not include my first love: shows)

and it doesnt help when my almost 5 years old laptop
cant support me in fast speed anymore
darn! so frustrating.
time to get a new comp!
(already planning)
(damn! more money spent)

DAMN. IM SO ADDICTED.

oh my oh my
my camera craze is seriously draining me dry
somebody stop me. (or not)

many thanks to shareen and khloee for their patient advices

the bliss

i am
HAPPY

Saturday, January 10, 2009

the library book

"So in spite of health, wealth, and the chance to live better than ninety-nine percet of the world, the people in my imediate circle were miserable. And from the likes of the tragic stories we broadcast every day, we were hardly alone. Most everyone, it seemed, felt not only depriced in some way, but incredibly gypped about something.

We expected a perfect marriage. A bigger paycheck. A better body. A newer car. A nicer home. A second home. The smartest kids. The right college. Championship teams. Prosperity. And anything they sold at Best Buy.

Where was I going with this? Oh yes. Maybe the problem wasn't so much that we had such high expectations, because we were born hardwires to dream. it was that we all felt entitled to whatever was on our wish list.

Unfortunately, when we put our lives as collateral for happiness, there was often a small hitch. The harder we pushed, the farther we got from the finish line."

- fate and ms. fortune by saralee rosenberg


i've been reading plenty these days
all thanks to my colleagues who visit the library regularly
its a great deal
i dont want to stop reading ever
even if its just chic lit
it pushes my brain and teaches me smth new
i've loved it and always will :D
my recent favourite author is meg cabot
please never stop writing!

Thursday, January 8, 2009

the words of God: choose not to worry

Choose Not To Worry

Matthew 6:27

Which of you by worrying can add one cubit to his stature?

Many Christians are familiar with Jesus’ rhetorical question, “Which of you by worrying can add one cubit to his stature?” But not many of us actually let it get into our hearts and allow the love of God to free us from our habit of worrying.

The truth is, no amount of worrying can lengthen your life or add anything to your physical person. Instead, worrying robs you of sleep, health and many good years. In fact, it is only when you are worry-free that God’s anointing flows freely in you, strengthening, healing, restoring and adding to you.

A church member, after undergoing a mammogram, found that she had lumps in her breast. Upon receiving the doctor’s report, she wrote this down on the report: “Jesus is my healer. I receive my healing. I am healed. I rest in God completely.”

She was due back at the clinic later the same day for a biopsy to see if the lumps were malignant. Her sister-in-law, who was having lunch with her that day, witnessed her cheerful and worry-free attitude while she ate her lunch.

Back at the clinic, this precious sister sat among other ladies who were also there for their biopsies. They looked very worried, so she started sharing Jesus with them and prayed for some of them. When her turn came and she had an ultrasound scan done, the doctor was puzzled — her scan showed no evidence of any lumps!

The doctor went back to consult her colleague who had first discovered the lumps. Stunned, both doctors conducted their own investigations. They returned to her only to say, “It’s a miracle!”

My friend, when you worry, you are actually believing that the devil has the power to make inroads into your life that God cannot protect you from. But when you refuse to worry, you are putting your faith in God. You have more confidence in His love and power working for you than in the devil’s ability to harm you! When you refuse to worry, but choose to rest in the finished work of Christ, you will see the manifestation of your blessing. You will see your miracle!

© Copyright Joseph Prince, 2006. All rights reserved.
All scripture quotations, unless otherwise indicated, are taken from the New King James Version ®.

Copyright © 1982 by Thomas Nelson, Inc. Used by permission. All rights reserved.
Copyright © 2006–2009 New Creation Church


this message came on time today
THANK YOU LORD.
i'll definitely pass my TP :D

Sunday, January 4, 2009

the wonders of plastic surgery

i was surfing around the net
trying to find out of the title of this korean drama
which i saw on tv accidentally many years ago

plot:
one of the twins, both girls and ugly
undergo plastic surgery and became beautiful
she fell in love with this rich guy
whose family is into the flower arranging
so the thing is..
the rich guy doesnt know she went through PS
and when he does, he avoids her or some sort
(cant remember the details exactly,
having watched it briefly so long ago,
THATS WHY IM TRYING TO LOOK FOR IT AGAIN
you get the point..)
she risks her reptuation by entering a tv show
which shows the before and after of girls going through PS
apparently its a disgraceful thing to do
(PS being so common, who ever knew huh)
im not sure if she went through PS again
to get her original looks back
but the rich guy has to make a decision
whether to accept her or not ....

i've always wanted to watch it again
so i typed "korean drama plastic surgery"
and a hugeload of forums about the topic came up

at first
i got this..
http://www.crunchyroll.com/forumtopic-192906/Korean-plastic-surgery.html

it became interesting
so i went on reading
until i saw this ...

"Posted May 7 2008
i saw these pic before..you should check out the japanese actors/actresses before and after picsyou won't believe it!! more shocking than this..these celebs only did minor things...the japanese actresses and actors did their whole face"


so i typed "japan plastic surgery"

and i got this
http://asianfanatics.net/forum/lofiversion/index.php/t309970.html

well
it didnt make a lot of difference to me
since i only recognised so few
until i saw this ..

..oh damn there's smth wrong with my comp
just scroll all the way down to ARASHI

look at them NOW
http://i22.photobucket.com/albums/b337/evielyn/Japanese/Arashi/l_arashi003.jpg

WTF
i totally forgot all about my original search
the sad thing is
its NOT JUST THEM (that i adore)
boo hooo

if all you had to do to be a star is
PLASTIC SURGERY
then anyone and everyone with talents can be it
nobody should be judged by looks anymore
because you can simply be anything or anyone

in fact
stars these days dont even need talent anymore

just lots of singing/acting classes
so if you have PS
hell ANYONE CAN BE A STAR

why go through the trouble of picking up pretty girls on the streets
if you're gonna turn them into PS queens

im surprised that there are forums about these surgeries
cost and after effects etc
well internet is powerful
http://www.singaporeexpats.com/forum/ftopic50308-1000.html&sid=d1832994c788edba162eac177d8dff8a

im definitely hooked on this topic
look at taiwan/hongkong stars
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vYfu0_96lvA
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=R8v3VwHBaho&feature=user

makes me wonder
in every singer's album
they has a different look to portray
so do they then go through PS for a new album?
even for the slightest thing?
sheesh


this is actually quite funny
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VahaF6w_xsk&feature=related

happy new year everybody
btw. I TURNED 21 :)