the finger dance game

the christmas spirit

3 weeks has passed since my last entry
and so much has happened since
well actually way beyond
i havent really been updating at all

driving test 02
company dnd
cj7/christmas shoots
patrick's farewell dinner
jiayi's birthday
promax
my family went cameron highlands
ashley's double o launch
moimd bbq gathering
wehjee's birthday
singapore art museum animation preview
anime festival asia
my new polariod
BLAHBLAHBLAH

soon it'll be christmas
and i'll be a year older
hitting the first year of my adulthood
and time will just roll over faster than before
im not sure if i want it to come at all


anyway
about my previous entry
i thank you for your comments
but i havent really been all that disappointed
i guess a little part of me had already expected it
and the post was more of a revelation
like the truth finally brought to light
or..
am i just trying to comfort myself now..
hmmm. dont want to think about it.


CHRISTMAS
CHRISTMAS
CHRISTMAS
HO HO HO.
i havent been this excited in years

is it because..
the church doesnt believe in christmas?
in return my mum doesnt believe in christmas?
resulting in the whole family not celebrating christmas?
and feel guilty celebrating it with friends?

this is the first year im celebrating christmas with true spirit
resulting in a huge hole in my wallet
but i dont mind, i really dont (strictly for christmas only)
i just wish i had more money. hahahaha

my rationale is ..
no matter how many things you buy for youself
it will never be enough
might as well spend that money on others
and keep them smiling till the end of the day
and maybe even longer!

so im elated that we'll be having another moimd gathering
and even happier that i have mat with me =]

cant wait for the holidays :)
will post pictures soon!

the disappointment

omgness
i just found out that
my mum was never proud of me
for my interest
for my good academic
for my improvement
for my success
basically for what i stand to be
its really shocking to realise
that everything i work for
is nothing in her eyes
ouch.

the symptoms

i dont know what is it im feeling
but its definitely not well
i feel giddy and nauseous
occasional gagging reflex
oh god.
i dont even feel like eating my fave food

the wronged feeling

oh man
i know the post is way overdued
but i just gotta say it

it really isnt as easy as i thought it would be
well, at least for some
being stuck in the middle
trashed by both sides
im exhausted
hurt
mainly just feeling wronged
i wish i didnt care so much
if only they knew how much they mean to me
then it wouldnt have to end this way
hate having to be on my guard all the time
im not good like that

ohwells.



i've got lots and lots to post
majorly braindead
will post ASAP.

the feminist book

linda showed me this feminist book
way way over the top prejudiced over men
really classic sexist



enjoy :)



and finally
my favourite of all ..


its funny that
these books were actually written by men themselves
shows who the sexist really are *winks

the guided path

if only life was a guided path

the holiday

its almost as if
thunder is trying to comfort me
rain is telling me not to cry
lightning is scolding me

the haircut

its been a long time since i went to a salon
and one day i just couldnt take it no more
the urge was too strong
i tried calling the MAISON
but they were unavailable
and i NEEDED (WANTED) to cut it that day
desperation arises
so i went to ranna's auntie's salon instead
her uncle helped me layered my hair
and i love it :D

btw.
i also dyed my hair a few days earlier
to my fave RED RED RED RED RED.
YAHOO :P


mat and i decided to surprise each other every other week
and this is what i got today :)

WOW.
heart shape + letter 'A' made of beautiful candles
i love it :)
thanks love


one day
i tried to find certain posts in my blogg
but it took me so long because ..
apparently my titles arent really hitting the mark
all i wanted was to name them with a 'the' word in front
must really think of a way to make it easier for me
cant keep clicking every single post
LABELS? hmm.



and then there's the company corperate event
imitating the amazing race
hosted by allen wu

more pictures coming up :)

the go utt crazy

utt and oli pettigrew came into the office today
and all of us (GIRLS ONLY) were going gaga crazy
lining up to take pictures with him
including myself
i was going around tell others that he was here
and then it hit me
why some reactions were just a 'so?'
he's only human
just a bit more famous and devastatingly handsome than us
but he's actually not very different
i wonder what happened to my dont care attitute
hmm. must be reliving my youth crazy fan stages now.

the weekend

ever wondered how my work place looks like?
ta dah :)


the indians working around this area
are always standing around the pond
talking laughing smiling etc
and i just found out there are fishes and turtles living inside!
and the view is simply beautiful


we walk pass this place almost everyday
its such a pity we hardly notice it
hoorays for the indians :)




went to mat's fave teppanyaki restaurant
with a different chief this time :)


doesnt it look yummy :P
and thats just the fried rice!
i forgot to take pictures of other food
thanks auntie for the meal :D
we go there so regularly
that they gave us a 10% discount
without us even asking for it
woooo hooooo
they love us! :D


went shopping with mat :)
guess what he bought..


a life time supply of ME :D


had dinner with mats dad
at this uber cool pub
they're famous for their numerous brands of beer
all from different country too :)
thanks for the meal uncle

we drank beer recommended by the owner
left: 6% alocohol sweeter than norm
but still has the bitter beer taste
right: 9% alcohol too bitter for my taste
but uber cool when the owner placed it on a champagne glass :)
all of us loosened up a bit
(mats dad, auntie, grandma)
and mats dad was singing very happily together with the band
haha. it was fun.


the moon


full moons are beautiful
this months' was exceptionally beautiful
because it shone bright
it felt like it was within my grasp
and i could do anything
a truly beautiful feeling



my dad


overloaded with work
trying hard to love us
I LOVE YOU DADDY.

the farewell lunch

sidetrack abit..
2 weeks ago 031008
my department had this offsite meeting at park hotel orchard
and not surprising
lunch was provided
(especially since there were SNACKS during tea break)

a delicious mini buffet
and main course

didnt take much pictures though
thats it. hahhaha


and on last thursday 091008
we had a farewell lunch with jason at..

changi airport terminal 3
SEE! so empty during lunch. lol.
but jason tells us that at night
its crowded as hell.


we're walking in..
and ordering..
and ..

yahoo!
we hit jackpot :D
first time eating at the soup restaurant
they serve really quickly
and it was great cause all of us were starving
hahaha


saw this pretty luggage parked outside the restaurant
tinkerbell from peterpan
super super cute
wish i had something like this when i was young :P

jason and linda each drove a couple of us back :)
its my first and probably last time sitting in his car
(he knows how to drive both a bike and car!)
how cool is that

beautiful right.

anyways
this is my wii character in the office
uber cute. hahahahahhahahaha
cant stop laughing at it

more pictures coming up :)

the medical reports

mat called me last night
and told me about 'josh'
omgness.

quote from jiayi's blogg

"hm.
ive both bad and good news.

BAD NEWS: hon got OOC-ed (Out Of Course), basically meaning he got kicked out of OCS.

EVEN WORSE NEWS: it's not because he faked an injury, it's because of heart complications. suspected of irregular heartbeat. it was found out only today by the Medical Officer when he reported a sharp pain in his heart while training last week. :(

GOOD NEWS: he gets to be an 8-5 clerk till dec."

i was chatting with jiayi and..
it reminded me about IRA.
i remember him saying his bmt is being pushed back
because his medical report showed some complications
and he was just joking that if he died
we have to attend his funeral -.-
morbid morbid thing to say
especially after i lost a friend.

hope you're doing fine ira!
CONTACT US!!!!

and
driving lesson went great!
another one coming up on thurs.

the rant

maveric's blogg went through a makeover
and its so pretty!!
the only thing is..
its all written in chinese
and i cant read a single word
boo hoo.


wonder how everyone's doing
neville ben jason caleb wehjee tom mat ETC
all went in army already
jam is working at her very own soon-to-be shop
tine is a carefree drum teacher
jia is slogging hard in an over-time job
ash still dancing hard
yada yada
WHERE IS EVERYONE.
time to do some catching up.

*insert photo here*
faces of moi in hereafter after fyp submission
:)


and.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY WENQI

*insert photo here*
so sorry i didnt make it to the chalet
i fell asleep the moment i got home :(
NO i didnt pangsei you!!!
i really did fell asleep. haha
hope you had fun though :)
lets meet up to celebrate kays!


lessons with albert starts again today
i hope i do well
I MUST DO WELL
really wanna feel happy when i go home!


I NEED NEW SHOES LIKE MAD.
shopping please!


super random post. -.-

the joyous long break

the usual
checking my mail once i reach the office
and what awaited me was this ..

"We at Sony Pictures are fortunate to have had a successful year. As a special thank you for working hard to contribute to our achievements, and in order to give you as much time as possible to plan your holiday schedules, we are delighted to announce today that we’re closing our offices for five additional days between Christmas and the new year.

That means, in addition to our existing holiday schedule, including days off on December 25 and January 1, we will be closed December 26-31 and January 2. Plus, with prior approval from your supervisor, you may leave work at 3 p.m. on Wednesday, December 24.

Thank you for helping us in our efforts to make Sony Pictures the best place to work in the industry."

which means NO WORK from 25th dec to 4th jan
cause 3rd and 4th jan are weekENDS.

I LOVE MY JOB.
and susan :P
dont worry i wont leave you!! hahahahaha

the america's got talent

the everyday routine when i reach home is
switch on the tv
sit down and use osim usqueeze
i usually tune in to the chinese channels
but today i just happened to turn to chn5
and america's got talent was showing
below is the first act i saw
and i was hooked


wowness right.
hope he wins :)

i feel a little proud of myself
for posting my very first video. haha
i know it seems silly cause everyone's doing it all these while
but who cares :P


Prayers.

Day 01
Lord, I thank You for Your Word because it is good and it gives me life. It puts joy in my heart every time I read it. I pray that Your Word in me will fill my heart with Your love and peace and cause all anxiety, depression, and other dark clouds to blow away from me like ashes in the wind. I ask that You would take away any sadness in my heart and set me completely free from all negative emotions.

Proverbs 12:25 Anxiety in the heart of man causes depression, but a good word makes it glad.

Day 02
Lord, help me not to feel anxious about my future or getting my needs met. Help me to trust that You have brought me this far and that You will bring me the rest of the way. Help me to not worry about things, but to take my concerns to You in prayer instead and leave them in Your hands.

Matthew 6:25 I say to you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink; nor about your body, what you put in. Is not life more than food and the body more than clothing?

Day 03
Dear Lord, because I am your child, I can refuse to allow depression to settle on me like a heavy blanket. Because I am Yours, I don’t have to be weighed down with anxiety. Because Your Spirit lives in me, I have the power to rise above the things that trouble me. Because I love You and Your ways, my life can be renewed every day. Today I pray that You would take away all anxiety, sadness and depression and renew my mind and emotions.

Psalm 119:92-93 Unless Your law had been my delight, I would then have perished in my affliction. I will never forget Your precepts, for by them You have given me life.

the ocs visit

by the way
for those who still doesnt know mat's posting
he went OCS!

and in ocs
there is a 3 weeks confinement
on the 2nd weekend
parents are allowed to visit

and this is how it looks like..
(lazy to describe. see pictures!)

wheet! really beautiful place.


his bunks!


mat and mum.


mat and me! :D


our only photograph together.
and i like it!


matttttttt my love


goodbye. end of day.

the prayer of deliverance

Heavenly Father, I repent of any sins in my life or my ancestors’ life that have been resulted in a curse. I repent of all disobedience, rebellion, perversion, witchcraft, idolatry, lust, adultery, fornication, mistreatment of others, murder, cheating, lying, sorcery, divination, and occult involvement. I ask for your forgiveness through the blood of Lord Jesus Christ.

I take authority over and break any and every curse upon my life in the name of Jesus. I break all curses of poverty, lack, debt, destruction, sickness, death and vagabondism. I break all curses on my marriage, family, children and relationships. I break curses of rejection, pride, rebellion, lust, hurt, incest, rape, Ahab, Jezebel, fear, insanity, madness and confusion.

I break all curses of my finances, mind, sexual character, emotions, will and relationships.

I break every hex, jinx, spell and spoken curse over my life.

I break every fetter, shackle, chain, cord habit and cycle that is the result of a curse.

According to Galatians 3:13, I have been redeemed from the curse of the law by the sacrifice of Jesus. I exercise my faith in the blog of Jesus and loose myself and my descendants from any and every curse. I claim forgiveness through the blood of Jesus for the sins of the fathers.

All of my sins have been remitted, and I loose myself from the curses that came as a result of all disobedience and rebellion to the word of God.

I exercise my faith and I know that confession is made unto salvation (Romans 10:10). Therefore, I confess that Abraham’s blessings are mine (Galatians 3:14). I am not cursed but blessed coming in and blessed going out. I am blessed and what God has blessed cannot be curse.

I command spirits of rejection, hurt, bitterness, unforgiveness, bondage, torment, death, destruction, fear, lust, perversion, mind control, witchcraft, poverty, lack, debt, confusion, double-mindedness, sickness, infirmity, pain, divorce, separation, strife, contention, depression, sadness, loneliness, self-pity, self-destruction, self-rejection, anger, rage, wrath, anguish, vagabondism, abuse and addiction to come out in the name of Jesus.

from the book; identifying, breaking curses
by: john eckhardt


i got this prayer from ranna's auntie
when i dyed my hair at her salon
(redbrown again. just love it)
no pictures though.

her faith was so strong it moved me
her friend working beside her
(also a christian)
prayed together with me
its been a long time God
my heart is filled with joy to return to you.


her friend gave this book to me!
i feel super touched
and its really what i need.


ranna's auntie gave this to me too
to help me through.


she also lent me this REALLY lovely book
which i pray with my second sis every day since.

THANK YOU FOR THE LOVE.
i really appreciate it :)

its funny that i've been a christian for almost all my life

and yet i know so much and so little at the same time

confusing.

i feel like a young christian who's heard many bible stories

or a lost christian who's found the way back

i probably dont talk about it much
but i feel really blessed by God

i feel blessed that ..
my faith and love for God was never shaken
i have always felt God's love for me
his presence with me is so strong when i pray
nothing very bad ever happens to me

comparing..
i feel a little like the only disciple Jesus had
that was not persecuted
but a little more immature

yes although there were no physical pain
but the emotionally side is really too hard to bear

at times
i'd wish i lived in the old testament
as a jew of course
though with many laws and limitations
plus punishments and God's wrath
but life would be so different
its just a fantasy of course
i love my life
thank God for that.

the timbre hotness revealed

PEEEEEKTURES.


for the sake of this guy here
i've decided to post
even though its 11.45 at night
and i've got work tomorrow!
why?
because. he. is. finally. entering. army.
TOMORROW. :D
or rather in a few hours time.
awww. arent you touched! :P


by the way
look at all our tops!
its either white black or grey!
moi black/white unspoken themed outing
lol :P




yay we got lighting blaze.
so pretttty.


we BORROWED stanford raffles' lights for a bit
for our outdoors shoot with FHM (elene)


thanks man!
still shining bright and standing tall as ever

take care in army weijie tom caleb!
i'll miss you guys man.

oh.
i almost forgot this very important picture..
FOOOOOOD.

famous beijing pizza which is just off my taste buds

tine jam and i dedicated a song to the 3 boys entering army
'dedication please.
for 3 friends entering army:
wehjee, k-bye, tomson
'any song that is suitable'

credits all pictures to tomu's SLR
and I WANT SCANNED PICTURES OF POLARIODS
which i doubt i'll ever get. lol

feel really sad ashley couldnt join us.
BE THERE NEXT TIME BABE!
wehjee's birthday :D

on the way to the atm!



paint the town red.
btw. i learnt this pose from a tourist!

the timbre hotness

i had a great time.
take care yo
we probably wont see each other for a while
maybe till wehjee's birthday
SURVIVE guys.
till then :)

the sixth month

jiayi and i decided to combine forces this sixth month :)


the all too familiar path

ta dah :)
ours + justin + minru + jiayi's mum 's hard work
thanks for your help!!!!!
really appreciate it :D

oh shucks. forgot to edit these pictures.
a lil saturated cause of my low res handphone camera


yes we purposely posed with the cookies
big chefs without the hat
all hard at work :P


dont you just want to lick off the chocolate from my hand!
ooo. yummy.


for our love :D
hope both of you loved it.


wednesday: public holiday: MAT BOOK OUT DAY
(inbetween his 3 weeks confinement)
mat accompanied me to ..

SWAGBAGS!! 200 of our famously good goodie bags for early birds!

it mentions there are 200 goodie bags for early birds
so i made us reach there at 10.15 instead of 11
in case there was a queue
just so that we could get the goodie bag
super kiasu right.
i think i was under the influence
when ranna said she'll go at 10
lols.

anyways.
we ended up having fabulous breakfast at DOM


the art museum


thank you for waking up so early for me :)


oh! then we went shopping shopping!
or rather. mat went shopping shopping!
for his army outfit.


new EXPENSIVE leather shoes
which i quote is 'very comfortable'


and classy hawt new white button down
with super classy cuff links
YOU LOOK GOOD dear.


happy anniversary love.
i feel in bliss :)